Fallacy of Hardwork
Working is dreadful. It feels like like you’re trapped within the confines of other’s instructions. Do I say or else.. Do this or else.. Be like this or else.. Or else what? I don’t get money? I get fired? But why does that bother me? Oh yes, I need money to sustain my body and I want money to feed pleasure to my mind. Am I even allowed to complain? Afterall, I did sign up for it. It was my choice to be choiceless.
Why is it so hard to work? It feels like there’s this imaginary brick wall between me and what I have to do. Like a lethargic sensation almost. No, I think it’s more of like an unwilling sensation. Yes, that’s it. I am unwilling to do it. I am trapped within the confines of my own unwillingness. No one seems to be complaining other than me, at least that seems to be what I’m seeing. Is everyone struggling just like me? Is the same monologue going on in their heads too?
How do I escape this? Escape what? Escape the dreadfulness of hard work. Why do I choose to do some things willingly and.. wait, was I about to say ‘choose to do some things unwillingly’. But that doesn’t make any sense. That would imply that I am intentionally unwilling to do something and that’s quite self deprecating.
Hard work is just the unwillingness to do something. Maybe it wouldn’t be so hard if I was willing to do it. I do like to lift weight and that’s way harder than a desk job. But why is the desk job called ‘hard work’ and lifting heavy pointless weights called ‘passion’. What is the difference? I don’t think hard work means that the action in itself is hard but more on the perceived willingness to take action. My left brain is kicking in to try to make sense of that which at hindsight, don’t make any sense at all.
If I had a scale from 1 to 10, 1 being extremely willing and 10 being extremely unwilling, how would I rate the things I do in my life. Am I willing to go through physical hardship and crucial discipline in my food to achieve a type of body I desire? 3 points. Am I willing to sit all day at a desk, keying in figures and numbers with a fixed salary and little to no opportunity for a promotion? 10 points.
Something still doesn’t feel right even with the quantifying it. What is work anyway? Well, I guess it’s the action you perform for others in return of a monetary benefit. And what is hard? Hard is something that doesn’t change easily. It’s something like or is a rock. It can withstand the changes of time and still holds on to it’s original shape. So to marry them together: Hard Work is an action you perform for others in return of a monetary benefit that is not easily changeable. I’m still confused.
I can’t seem to merge the puzzles together. Maybe because my thinking is disjointed. Let me piece them together. I imagine my brain now like a spider, weaving the webs together to form a nice-tidy-structured web. Sounds like an OCD-spider. Did I mention I love spiderman? I digress.
Here’s the grandiose answer you’ve been waiting for. The World varies from soft to hard, like the swiftness of air to the grounded mountains. There is a part of us that craves and needs stability like a rock. This sense of hardness in us, that is unwilling to let go of what we have gathered, comes out at what we call ‘hardship’. I don’t think it’s a matter of good or bad but a choice of choice. A choice to choose or a choice not to choose. Choose what? Choose how hard you want to do something.
If I want something which withstands the tides of time, I have to also be and build something which takes time. If I want something fast and dispersed, I have to also be and build something that is fast and dispersed. But I am pretty sure the effort to result ratio isn’t 1 to 1. Just because it took me 1 hour to build something, it doesn’t mean it’ll last for only an hour. But maybe it does, if I build it carelessly, then yea, it will break within an hour or less! The 80/20 rule is starting to make sense now with the clause that the 20% of effort is careful and correct, and then it will yield 80% of the desired result. When did I start becoming a philosopher? My gosh. I want a easy way to understand this. Insert joke: I guess I’m quite airy.
The action I take feels harder if internally I am unwilling to do it. But how do I make myself willing to do something? Accept it. Acceptance of where I am. Instead of fighting what task is given to me, I just accept it. This quote is coming to my mind: “Be like water my friend”-Bruce Lee. Yes that’s it.
That’s it! Nature has the answer. I choose hardship because it allows my emotions to flow just like water on the banks of the river. I choose to lift weights because it gives me the comfort of health. My emotions are much more stable. I do not choose to sit at a desk job because it doesn’t provide the type of comfort I need. I don’t care if the numbers on the balance sheet go wild but I do care if my health goes whack.
I see now. I chose to suffer and drench in hardship to preserve what I love. To build something that takes time, my mind and my action must be willing to go to the ends of Hell to reach Heaven. This is the cost I pay for preservation. I suffer like a slave to be reach freedom. Paradoxical. I know.
Ok, here’s a cool quote I made: Money is not a recent invention. Nature has already been playing the game of economy. For everything that you acquire, has a cost. For everything that you loose, you will eventually receive.
Ok time to re-read this entire thing before I get attacked by the grammar wizard.